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Creeps.

November 03, 2010 . 3:44 pm

I don't really know, and I'm not really sure, but the first thing that came to my mind when I thought of humans (people) who do horrible things like making their occupation a serial killer and computer hackers and bank robbers and conmen and pedophiles... was the word "creeps". So yeah that explains it.

I feel like shrugging it off right about now and going to eat my lunch, but my sore throat isn't really giving me an appetite. I'm wondering why I'm writing this blog post now when I should be desperately chionging my prose for CAP application which I diedie need to give to HuiYing either by tonight or tomorrow morning plus the completed form which I need to hand in. Does anyone know if it's possible to have someone get a teacher's recommendation FOR you? Because if it is I'd be really happy if someone could offer to help do that while I lie in bed sick and feeling horrible.

Sigh. What is all this.

I went to the doctor just now and he asked me if I could drive, right after explaining to me that a certain type of medicine he was about to prescribe me could possibly sedate me. Specifically (ah, cheem words), he asked if I had a motorbike =__= wonderful, if someone my age could look like a biker I don't think primary schoolers would have much trouble making someone believe that he/she had a licence if they were good with words.

That was creepy. But that was nothing compared to the things other people do, like having "mercy" on people by killing them because they're suffering, maybe because of the death of a loved one, or maybe because they're just doing drugs and can't get off them. They're throwing away their life, yes, but they're still making use of it, aren't they? They're doing something, at least. Not sitting in a block of ice for some decades without being able to use any of the five senses.

I feel scientific. Is that a good thing?

Is it better to continue to live, and destroy all the joy we find in it? Or is it better to take that cowardly escape and throw away all that opportunity for happiness we were given. Death, drugs, blah blah blah, I may not have experienced any of them before, but from the way I see it, it's an escape. It's what people resort to when they feel weak and they want power, but can't get it. They feel powerful by causing the demise of others.

I remember watching one episode of Criminal Minds a few days ago, where there was one person who had a trauma of the dark as a child. He grew up and worked as a phony doctor who aimed to cure the fears of people who had phobias that prevented them from doing things that others couldn't do, or affected their lives so greatly to the point that they found it absolutely necessary to seek help. All those people who wanted to improve their lives, he killed them. He was probably a sadist, though I can't remember a details. He observed all their deaths and wrote the time of death down in a little pocket notebook, along with the reason causing their death.

He should've written his name down, really, instead of "drowning" or "suffocation" and other stuff.

In the end, he committed suicide because he'd been found out by the police. They chased him all the way up to the roof, but by the time they'd arrived there, he was already standing on the ledge. Like most suicidal people, they left others a message -- the last thing he told Agent Hotch, pointing a gun at him and telling him to get off the ledge and not to jump, was that "The greatest fear you have is not being able to save everybody."

And I think that's really true.

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That sounded like a nice ending to the post. I think I should've left it like that, but the post didn't seem like it was long enough yet, and it doesn't give a full explanation of how I get to see some people as creeps.

Well, I did mention earlier on that I needed to do my CAP prose by tomorrow, so that's exactly what I shall ATTEMPT to do now, and TRY to get off the computer. My brain is pretty much dry right now, like my throat, so I shall take a break and maybe continue my explanation of horribly sadistic human beings with no sense of morality another time.

Ciao~.

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