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December 06, 2010 . 7:03 pm

It feels weird, ne...

I haven't been posting for such a long time! :0 It's been a month and three days. And previously I even said I'd be posting multiple times a week, now that it's the holidays. Seems like I really don't seem to have as much time as I think I do.

At the moment, I'm trying to get my mind into a sort-of "delusion" that I am usually in when I begin to write stories, fanfiction and such. It helps me think that miracles happen all the time and that's where my source of happiness comes from when I write.

Contrary to that, on other occasions when I feel extremely depressed and need something to cheer me up, I usually have four options to choose from.

One!
Read the manga "Shiawase Kissa Sanchoume". I don't know how anyone cannot feel happy just by reading that manga, it is so effective in lightening up my mood because of its mere dumbness. Shiawase is Jap for Happy anyway, so I really love to read that manga. Hehe.

Two!
If I get the chance, I sneak into the kitchen and grab my big bottle of Nutella and take a whiff of the chocolate. It's awesome! :D It's raining right now, and my face is heating up (for some unknown reason, it always does when it rains :/), which makes me feel restless and uneasy, so I managed to sneak in and grab the bottle and a spoon, and for the next hour I sat in an air-conditioned room feeding myself with nothing but the taste of Nutella and cold metal (spoon), sneezing and laughing myself to death. Laughing, because of the third option I have which I am about to present your with below.

Three!
Watch the reality/variety (i forgot which XP) show called Star Golden Bell on KBS World (channel 115 on Starhub cable <3). It's really absolutely hilarious and I absolutely love it with all my heart <3. Five minutes into watching the show and I completely forget that I was ever depressed before. It's not some sitcom drama like Hannah Montana (hahaha) or anything, it's a show where Korean celebrities are invited on the show to take part in quizzes and talk a little about their daily life and such, and all the money they earn from answering the quizzes correctly goes to some charity foundation? or scholarship? or something. but it's for a good cause and for people at home, a good laugh:D so yeah <3 Especially since for the last, I think nearly, FIVE (<3)(?) weeks, MBLAQ's visual maknae Cheondung has been on the show (although Lee Joon has been there longer <3) and it makes me fangirl seeing my favourite Korean celebrity up there. Although I still find it sad that SHINee rarely makes any appearances on TV, unlike MBLAQ and 2PM and U-KISS. Ah well I'm probably being a pain right now so I shall stop talking about Korean sutffs since there are others out there who are less concerned about these types of things others come to love <3. Ah, I've never been to a live concert of any celebrity so far, and since I only can manage to attend the ones in Singapore (although I have not managed to:P), I guess my field of vision must be extremely limited, no? Otherwise I can shift the blame onto the lack of parental consent. Hehe. But it's rather surprising... I have nearly ten autographs of Singaporean actors/singers/celebrities... I don't really remember the names of all of those whose autographs I own... Because I'm acquainted (ooh, formal word:D) with one of those celebrities since I was tiny and only a few years old... And because of that he got me his own autograph and those of co-actors in the same show... Let me count, alright? It sounds like I'm bragging again (I KNOW! I don't want to mention it either but I feel like I have to, so that I can avoid being critized against :/) but I really am not >.< Paul Foster... Kiwi Lim... Julian Low... Sezairi Sezali... ah sorry wait I don't think I can remember any more!!! >__< And my feet are lazy to take me to my room to get the autographs stashed deep in my drawer of so-called "precious things" ;) Hehe.

I REALLY WANT K-POP MERCHANDISE BUT I WON'T BE HELPING KOREAN GROUPS SELL IF I DON'T ORDER THEM DIRECTLY FROM KOREA! D:

It's sad, but since I am an avid fan who fail to live without seeing the faces of my favourite idols on a daily basis I shall go out and buy SHINee and MBLAQ and BEAST and U-KISS merchandise in Singapore for a cheap price once I find a nice place:( Perhaps the next time after school I shall stop by Far East and buy many many many of those wonderful posters and whatever else like Albums :") <3

Oh and by the way the post before this one happened to be posted on the same day, do you know why? Haha. Because that was typed over a month ago as well (or around there~), and since I was in no mood to continue that post I ended off abruptly with what I had already written at the time and started a fresh new one here. Hehe.

Have I mentioned that I'm reading the manga Zettai Heiwa Daisakusen at the moment? So that I'm able to study the lives of people who are born into Royalty and live a life in which every little aspect is covered by the media and your private life is exposed to the whole world, by where no secrets can be kept.

Hehe, it sounds so action-packed and dark doesn't it! :) Although of course the author is not from Royalty (I think it would be deemed unfit by those Royal people to work as a mangaka, sadly :/), but she must have done some research too in order to create an awesome manga, right?! I wish I had a friend from Royalty... :( I always try my best to understand people but I guess it doesn't really work out and people just call me a busybody... Ahh the sadness of this world.

Hmm... I think the real situation is that since the characters I create are mostly from my delusions, they tend to possess some qualities or traits that I deem to be "perfect", but may be horrible or unsightly or whatever else in the eyes of other people. That's why I think I find it hard to create arguments between my characters where they call the other "ignorant, freaky, weird, stuck-up" and other adjectives which I cannot seem to think of right now. But since "pervert" and "creepy" have been used so often in manga, I think I'm able to use them now as well. Hehehe.

Oh well, I guess that ends my long lecture about myself here. In the next entry I shall talk about how I want to be a university lecturer when I grow up and the number of languages in which I am able to say "I love you~" <3.

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. 6:25 pm

I absolutely feel so depressed right now. (contrary to the title...)

By being depressed, filling this post with depressing things, am I not making other people depressed too? At least, only those who bother to read, I guess.

I noticed that people don't really read the blogs of others. Those who do can be categorised into a few types of people:

one: haters. who want to find fault with the person being hated and therefore reading the hate-able blog posts of that person.

two: good friends. who bother to keep updated with the life of their friends who are close to them.

three: paranoid people. those who are scared that people are saying something about them on their blog posts because they are in some way involved with that person. maybe they'd be blogged about as someone horrible because they did something horrible. or they confessed and they want to see the reaction of the person they like if they couldn't take it face to face or if they felt the reaction was fake.

... Now I have entered my dreamland and have started taking ideas from manga and fanfiction. Oh wonderful, it feels as though I'm about to become delusional again.

I wish I could make my fantasy a reality... Sigh~.

It's as though people like me who are so utterly hopeless and useless can't seem to be able to do anything to fulfill their dreams because they have absolutely no talents and can't seem to do anything for themselves, that's why they envelop themselves in their own little bubble world of perfection that no one else can get a hold of.

And then they come to the point where they get so depressed that they want other people to realize their dream, their fantasy, and they try to convey their message to others, they let other people into their own world so that they may plead for just a little bit of help for someone with mercy to save them from this darkness they can't escape from.

... I should start writing now before I go on and on about ridiculous things that should not be conveyed to other people because I would be considered a weirdo, right? Then I would be shunned and thought of as a weird person who looks weird, talks weird, behaves weird, and even has a weird family background, therefore weird blood.

That's the worst it can get.

Weird blood, unhuman, and corrupted beyond repair.

I feel like a machine, I think that may be true. Right?

...

My mom recently pasted something on our dressing table, a note of some sort, reminding anyone who happened to pass by, "Ask questions that encourage two-way conversations." The first time I'd seen it, I'd thought, why must she post such useless stuff everywhere? She's wasting paper. Not conserving the environment. Save trees FTW!

Of course I was bored and only helplessly making excuses for myself.

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